Beggar (?)

Thanks A for the boots! If it's not for you, I would have given up completely.

It's Monday night and fill-up night. Just as I suspected, the middle-aged female beggar was there again. She may be stationed there everyday. (And yet has the guts to say she's not "a beggar or something like that".) Again, that gas station had one of the lowest price in the area at 114.9 (others were still 116 something). There were about 5 cars amongst the 8 pumps. The row closest to the 7-11 was full. I got the only empty pump in the second row. Oh yes, that woman was there alright. She saw me pulling into the spot and started walking towards my car. How am I gonna dodge this?

I needed to buy some time to observe her so I phoned A and told him the situation from the safety of my car. The woman stood outside my door waiting. I felt like I was the hunted prey and she was the stalking predictor. It was super unpleasant. Then I realized this phone call may help me avoid talking to her. So I kept A on the line as I clumsily proceeded with the pump with one hand. (Thanks A!) That woman tried to interrupt me twice even though I was on the phone. Of course I successfully avoided. 2 other cars arrived at the pumps further away from the 7-11 but she didn't go for them. She just wanted to nail me! This made me very mad! Why me? Do I look rich? Do I look too friendly? Do I look easy to trick? Do I look stupid?

I was done and got back into the car. She made another attempt to get my attention but of course I could avoid thanks to the phone. She was still waiting outside my door as if once I hang up, she'd knock on my door or something! Geeze...

So I stayed on the phone while trying to buckle up with one hand, which was super difficult. Nevertheless worked and I started the car. That woman did not give up until I start driving away. Geeze...

I don't understand why I feel so violated and mad. Is it because she's been hassling me? (But actually not me alone.) Is it because she's a liar? (Of course she is!) Or is it because the situation makes the neighbuorhood feel unsafe?