10th anniversary

Time flies. My bonus life has lasted 10 years so far. But what have I done in these 10 years? Sadly, none of my effort seem to yield any fruit.

Am I not digging hard enough? Am I digging the wrong hole? Or is it both?

At first I was just happy to be alive. Didn't think I need anything else. But, eventually, "alive" alone isn't enough. The "job" part was kind of expected, but I never thought I'd loose friends because of the side effects.

... Of course, I'd still like to believe life, no matter how tough, is still better than death. Haha... dumb question, isn't it?

Today should be a day to celebrate...

But...
Why have I fallen into a give-up mode?
What is this sense of panic when seeing everyone else move ahead and I'm still so behind?
Why can't I completely let go of the past and start fresh?
Why do I feel so trapped and useless?

Or...
Is it simply bad luck and bad energy flowing around me near Halloween, just like 10 years ago that almost took my life?

Pinky: sitting

The 2 official sitting Pinky(s) so far. (3 if counting the other Rabbit scooter Pinky.) Actually this is to test the compatability with this Re-ment Korean Tour. The stools seem to be just a touch too short, but the rest is great! The scale is almost perfect.

Fog

Just before 9 a.m.

Foggy.

Change of seasons

Is it that time of the year already? Spring and fall are not very good to the body. The nasal allergy returns. The change of weather pattern and moisture make my back whiny. There's a lack of energy in general. I'd move to a dessert if rain is giving me this much problem. But then I don't want wrinkles either... Oh well.

"Bust Emperor"

Remember this? Now there IS a boob version. Oh dear...

packing, plan B

The initial plan of putting all the swords together in a bundle for strength failed. (Because they aren't all flat. Some are curved, some have pegs sticking out, and some are attached to the hand.) So just in case, I'm bringing out my reserved secret weapon. An Oyumaru box from Daiso. The spear is still way too long. So it's taped to a pair of disposable chopsticks. Hope this works...

packing

Thanks Adrian for bringing the toys back to Hong Kong. Time to pack it up! Breakage might be a problem. Kanbe's sword is broken already. This sculpt totally doesn't make sense. The blade itself is detachable, but not the hands, which is one piece with the sword handle. The tassel of course is the continuation of that. It's just waiting to be broken. Sigh... I wonder if there's any PVC shell like Kikucho, that the store didn't give me. (This is the display set and was out of the packaging and all assembled when I bought them.) Oh well...