Chiropractor

Chiropractor and errand day. Was gonna mail a bunch of packages before the appointment but I was too late. So I did it after. Managed to enter a post office 10 minutes before they closed at 5 (I thought they close at 6). 2 of the 5 packages needed to be weighted and then sealed. I didn't have enough time. The sealing was butched and very ugly. (T_T) However, I think I narrowly made the collection.

The parcels took longer than I thought, and I didn't even have a chance to call S. I was supposed to call her at my chiropractor. Hand over some toys for her company's charity auction. I wish I could join, but of course it's employees-only. (T_T)

Vanier park

A wanted to go to Vanier park for a walk. It was far away, but since I haven't seen him for a week, I went along. It was cold! Very cold!!!!! There were dogs going into the sea despite the cold, though. Incredible!

Grocery shopping at Granville after that. With the ingredient we bought, we made sandwich for dinner. Forgot to take Pinky picture. I must have been hungry.

Black and white

Pompom attack! (Actually brooches I'm sending to my Japanese blog friends...) They're all gonna be late for Christmas, though... (T_T) And I don't have everyone's mailing address...

Near miss

Thanks to evil half price Michael's coupons, I went to Richmond. Well, I do need some craft supply. When I went back to my car, I noticed the car next to mine had a broken passenger side window. It wasn't covered either. Yikes... Then, after I put my purchase into my trunk, I saw the broken glass on the floor. That car... got broken in just now?!?! OMG OMG OMG OMG OMG!!!!!!! That, could have easily been my car. It was late and I didn't know when my next stop close, I left without doing anything. Hmm... now that I look back, there was noting I could do anyway.

Home Depot was selling Chinese-looking narcissus, which I thought blooms in February. Hmm...

Dark Chocolate Blackout

From April 2011. Thanks A! I know you always think of me when it comes to dark chocolate, and I appreciate it very much, but this one is not good at all. Hmm... the cacao is there, but doesn't taste good. Maybe it's just me not knowing how to appreciate this kind of raw bitterness. Plus, there is a sour aftertaste. Sorry...

December

Yikes... only one month left for this year... how come it went by so fast?

Finally finished the pompoms. Way too late for Christmas, though. Hope they don't mind. (T_T) The E6000 glue sucks. Why does it get good reviews? It's too thick and stringy, loose tack too soon, really hard to apply without making a mess, and stinks when curing. And, can't believe our version contains carcinogen! What's the government thinking? Why worry more about fire then cancer???

As I worked on the pompoms, I got a headache. I know it's from the glue. This reminds me of my ex-boss, who did not believe I'm so sensitive to chemicals.... She also didn't believe I cannot use the mouse and must substitute with a tablet. Or I simply cannot work as fast as she wants, and all of my stupid mistakes.

Why do most people not believe me? Why do they all think I'm wrong or crazy? They don't even want to believe I'm not as smart as they think. Who are they to judge how I feel when they're not me? Is there really something wrong with me? Why do I keep getting negative responds? Is this what the world is trying to tell me? Is God trying to push me over the cliff?

Why am I here? What should I do?

What's wrong with me???

Migraine

Not sure when exactly it started (4:30?), but I was dizzy for a few moments. Then I thought I've looked at the monitor for too long. (It's true that I couldn't resist looking at a bunch of extra sites.) My vision felt weird. It was like my blind spot from the accident had grown and shifted. Alarmed, I started to wrap things up. Then, it appeared. The trademark. The zigzag spiraling fractal. Very tiny at first, near the center of my visual field. Ah-ha, that explains the blind spot.

ASAP, I ran to take pain killers. This time I decided to try the Advil A gave me. If he takes 2, 2 should work for me. Then I quickly turn off everything in the computer room and took a shower. The fractal grew to fill up the right half of my visual field, but it didn't really block the scene like it usually does. As I went on with my business and accessed the cabinet above the toilet, the fractal suddenly disappeared! It was like, I took my attention away for a second, and it was gone. Hmm... strange! Was it because I took Advil instead of my usual Tylenol? I think less than half-an-hour had elapsed since the migraine started. A little bit sooner than usual. However, I felt dizzy again. It was like marking the start and end of the attack. No, I'm not complaining.

So, after brushing my teeth, I was about to go to bed. But then I thought I should write this down first. Another strange thing is, as I'm writing this, I do feel a slight headache around my eyes and the front half of my head. It's like a diluted migraine. Hmm... The Advil may not be strong enough, but it can explain my lightheadedness. However, my head and eyes are actually feeling very heavy. Very unpleasant. Better go now.