The sewing machine is used almost everyday now. Dad keeps dismantling his own pants, especially when he sits on the toilet. No wonder why he sits there for half an hour each time just to pee. Mom keeps having to mend his pants. She's fed up. Just now he took the tag off which mom had sewn there to mark the back of the pants. This drives mom nuts. I don't know if dad likes to dismantle things, or he just tries to do whatever he can or knows how to. Then it's sad that he only know how to destroy things. If you ask him if he's done something, the answer is always "no", "don't know", or "don't remember". Or, no answer at all. (Maybe silence = admit?) But of course, when such a question arise, it's always something bad that he's done.
Sunday, January 31, 2010
Pants unsewing
The sewing machine is used almost everyday now. Dad keeps dismantling his own pants, especially when he sits on the toilet. No wonder why he sits there for half an hour each time just to pee. Mom keeps having to mend his pants. She's fed up. Just now he took the tag off which mom had sewn there to mark the back of the pants. This drives mom nuts. I don't know if dad likes to dismantle things, or he just tries to do whatever he can or knows how to. Then it's sad that he only know how to destroy things. If you ask him if he's done something, the answer is always "no", "don't know", or "don't remember". Or, no answer at all. (Maybe silence = admit?) But of course, when such a question arise, it's always something bad that he's done.
Pants on the knees
Saturday, January 30, 2010
Friday, January 29, 2010
More beads
Micro beading continued. Had to wear the clip-on magnifier all day. Killing my eyes. (T_T) Well, OK, the stringing was done around 2, and I switched to filling 1/12 scale small trays with flat back nail rhinestones. Needed to be placed one by one. Same deal. Not any easier on the eyes.
Thursday, January 28, 2010
Japan Roller
BTW, the company is call "Odor King"! What the heck!?!?! (Engrish?!)
Wednesday, January 27, 2010
Cardiologist
Apparently, the number of teeth is related to brain health. (Got it somewhere from the web.) That sensitive layer between your teeth and jaw bone is like the whiskers of cats. People who have Alzheimer's tend to have very few teeth left. Yikes... So, keeping as many teeth as you can may reduce Alzheimer's risk? I've already had 4 completely good teeth removed for braces. Wisdom teeth are gone too. Only 24 left as to a full set of 32. OMG... (T_T)
Tuesday, January 26, 2010
Beaded out
Monday, January 25, 2010
Ophthalmologist (4)
Ophthalmologist...
Retina scan only took 5 minutes. Amazing! Didn't even need to dilate my pupils. The scanner was like those for glasses which you look into a machine at a cross-hair. Have to come back 2 weeks later to talk to the doctor, though. This is how people don't get proper treatment in time.
Lunch with S...
Long time no see!
Chiropractor...
The usual stuff.
Bank...
Interest explained. Any payment after 5PM on Friday gets counted as the next Monday. I was automatically considered late for 3 days the moment I paid. F#@%&!!!!!!
Bakery....
To pick up tomorrow's lunch.
Even got to write a Japanese e-mail. However, not to the person I want to write to. Jumping the line a little. Oh well...
Sunday, January 24, 2010
Choceur
Hazel nuts in milk chocolate. Brought back from Europe by Andrew. Thanks! It's delicious! Usually I prefer pure chocolate than those with fillings or nuts, but this one is fine. It's a good emergency food source. (Quite filling.) And of course European chocolate doesn't have that sour aftertaste like those over here. Probably because they use real cream instead of skim milk. More fattening, though.
Saturday, January 23, 2010
Banks suck
What I didn't know is, there seems to be not only a cut-off date, but also a cut-off time. If I miss the time, then it counts as the next day, even though the due day hasn't ended. And, the cut-off time is when the bank closes.
So, that's like $38 or so last month, and $10 or so this month, just for interest. Mind you I only make $60 a day before expense, that is, if I get called to work. My boss is away too much so I don't get enough work. It's not that I don't want to work.
How can I be so dumb? I didn't even look at last month's bill and automatically assumed I'm clean because I pay in full. I'm just too dumb. Thought I could trust the bank with my money. Not. (T_T)
Sorry I lost control again.
Friday, January 22, 2010
Dream
Wow... I was G in K. I was a boy and formally dressed. Reenactment of the shoe purchase scene. Got a new pair of shiny black leather shoes. It fitted perfectly and super comfortable even though it was brand new. Somehow I said, poor baby cow or lamb (for it's skin became the shoes). Then Au lead me out to go to a black-tie party, on foot. Just the two of us. It was at night and dark outside. I asked Au if he's cold. He said no. It was like walking on a narrow side walk on a highway with cars speeding by. After a short distance of about a block, I noticed I've forgotten my cell phone. Au passed me the keys to my car and I went back. The I opened the passenger side door...
... and woke up. That was it.
Thursday, January 21, 2010
Park Royal fail
No work tomorrow. I'm all burnt out anyway. But this also means, no car tuneup. Crap! Dentist appointment is coming up too! (T_T)
Wanted to stop by London Drugs to see the actual storage boxes that are on sale. 8 for $10. Should be about shoe boxes size. The closest one's on Lonsdale, but there was a police incidence and traffic jam. So I went to Park Royal. My eyes were pretty much gone from working on miniatures all day. Missed the usual exit, for I go there less than 10 times a year. Worked out fine because highway 1 exits directly into Taylor Way. Stopped by the dollar store, then (of course) Michael's. However, going from the south mall to the London Drugs in the north mall was a problem. Ended up in nowhere-land before I could u-turn. Finally arrived at the parkade outside the big "London Drugs" sign. But there was no entrance! The store no longer exist? Couldn't be, because the shopping cart station was clearly marked "London Drugs". Asked a passer-by, and found out I have to go around and through the mall entrance. There is no direct street entrance. (Fail!!!!) OK, went in there, it was 8:58 and most stores are closed.... London Drugs' gates were down and they were only letting people out! They close with the mall! All other branches I know of closes at 10!!!!!! AAAAARRRRRGGGGGHHHHH!!!!!!!!
Fine. I'd go back to Lonsdale. But I couldn't trace the way I came because the entrance is one-way! Found a way out midway, but thanks to the island in the meridian, I couldn't go east! Fine, I'll go into the south mall... but again, no u-turn! I ended up going into the soccer field and forced a u-turn in their parking lot. Sigh... Finally, I made it to Marine Drive.
By the time I arrived at the Lonsdale branch, it was around 9: 25. Looked at a few sale items, but didn't buy the storage boxes. There were only 4 left. Kind of weak anyway. Oh well. At least I got to stock up on some other stuff.
As usual, ate a late dinner and felt asleep at the desk. Won't be able to sleep tonight again. (T_T)
Wednesday, January 20, 2010
Destroyer
My neck and shoulder are aching. (T_T) However, I'm doing better than expected, considering the 3-day-in-a-roll assault on them, plus the eyes and butt. Yeah the butt is a newcomer. It's more like prolonged pressure on the end of the tail bone. Hurt trying to stand up or sit down.
When I was away at work for the past 3 days, dad went around and destroy things again. According to mom, he had taken apart a windup radio my uncle gave us for in case of power-outage. Sigh... Then mom discovered dad took apart the pair of pants he was wearing when siting on the toilet. That's just way too surreal. Asked him why, and he said don't know. I no longer know what to say or what to think either. (T_T)
Once again around 3 AM, I caught dad trying to discard a piece of used toilet paper into the kitchen garbage can after peeing, instead of flushing it down the toilet. It's been crumbled into a ball. I suspect he's been wiping the bathroom sink or faucet or counter or wall or what not with pee-soaked toilet paper. Every time I wash my face, the smell of urine rises up from the sink. Spraying cleaner and rinsing the sink and faucet alone doesn't completely get rid of the smell.
Then dad resorted to peeing standing up again. Well, he's been good after the second aneurysm surgery, and willing to sit down for the first round, but after he washes his hands, he immediately goes back to pee a little more. For this second round, he refuses to sit down, resulting in urine on the raised toilet seat, the floor, and his pants. Oh, and he no longer remember to flush the toilet.
Mom started to get up in the middle of the night when dad gets up to pee, to make sure he sits down and flushes and throws the used toilet paper into the toilet. Not good. At this rate, mom will wear out soon. Well, I haven't been sleeping well this week either. Ranging from 1 to 4 hours each night. I'm just waiting to see when I'll drop dead, or cause a serious accident on highway 1.
Tuesday, January 19, 2010
Tired
It's Tuesday, and the usual eat-out day with brother's gang. I was so tire, I forgot to take Pinky picture at dinner, even though I had a Pinky with me.
This picture is stocked up from before. We always order the same thing, so I suppose this makes no difference.
Monday, January 18, 2010
Red neck
Yup, don't think I got much sleep. Tossing and turning. My back was bad. Last night's wind storm was loud. Our door mat got flipped. The anti-crow netting in our lawn got all messed up. The streets were littered with branches. Power outage in several area.
Game Music's order arrived! Yay~! Took them 3 weeks, though. But I'm glad it's finally here.
Thanks A, it does make a big difference.
Sunday, January 17, 2010
Dream
This time I was in a flight, and it seemed to be going to Japan. It must have been an Air Bus. The aisle was down the middle, with 3 seats across on each side. I got a window seat on the second roll on the left (but I usually prefer aisle seat). The 3 seats in front were my girl friends (but don't know who). On my right was Scar (yikes... must be because I read the latest chapter of FMA before I slept, and he was in the very last frame). He just sat there and didn't do anything. Then one more unknown gentleman after that.
The flight attendants urged everyone to have some sleep. You know how uncomfortable those seats are. Somehow I "invented" a "very comfortable" way. It was like siting down reversed. Lie down with my back on the seat and my legs up on the back. Then I put my left leg through the seat cushion extending onto the floor. Amazingly there was a pocket for that purpose. My right leg was bend up. (There is no way this can be comfortable in real life.)
The two guys on my right left their seats, so I thought this was the perfect chance to go to washroom. As I proceeded, there were some other events, but I can't remember.
Saturday, January 16, 2010
Dream
A was in a nighttime horseback riding competition. His turn was up but he was still in the wash room. So I went to fetch him. We came back but his turn was already gone. There was some grade school boy trying to get onto his horse, but the horse wouldn't let him.
Then we were lead to a house party for dinner. It was like a banquet with many tables. Everyone was dressed in turn-of-the-century clothes. Tables only sit 4. I was assigned to sit with a couple and their girl friend while A was at the next table. There was a break, and together with a bunch of guests, I was shown a part of the house. On my way back to my table, I needed to make a big stride, and noticed I was wearing a long skirt (seemed like I was also dressed in costume). Sitting was all mixed up so I went to sit with A. A gentlemen and a lady joined us. They looked like father and daughter. We tried to have a conversation with the lady, but she seemed to be retarded and we couldn't talk much. We were served food, but I can't remember what.
There were more, but as usual, evaporated before I could write it down.
Friday, January 15, 2010
Chiropractor
Thursday, January 14, 2010
Nougat Praline
Wednesday, January 13, 2010
UPS
I do admit, I am feeling better. Thanks A! (^_^) Well, the third image above may cause some misunderstand. It belongs to A, but not the reason I'm feeling better.
Tuesday, January 12, 2010
UBC hospital
As anticipated, I did get lost. Took a wrong turn at the round-about where Marine Drive meets 16th. I should have printed the map out instead of trying to memorize it. (T_T) Wasted some time there, but still OK. However, we couldn't find the building after we parked, and lost more time. Dad can't walk fast. We were 5 minutes late. The nurses were waiting for us already.
We got dad changed, and sent into the room alone. I wasn't allowed in despite being his translator. After that, don't remember much. I kept dosing off in the waiting area. On my way back from the washroom, I saw dad siting in the hallway with other patients in line for something. Told mom, and she went to sit with him. I continued dosing off. It was super uncomfortable. All the joins in my body was aching.
There were 2 tests. Kidneys function test, and bladder function test. By the time we were called in to see the doctor, those were done. The last thing was a cystoscopy (sticking a camera into the urethra). We were allowed to be in the room. A little bit of translation was needed. Like, we need you to sign for consent to be examined, come closer the the edge of the bench, put your feet here, the nurse is going to clean you, she's going to inject freezing gel, the doctor is going to insert the camera, etc. I'd say, the procedure was not unlike Medieval torture. Blood is expected to be seen in urine for about 2 days, and it's normal.
It was almost 11 AM when we left. Took 16th Ave this time. It seemed very smooth and easy. But I didn't want to take any chance on our way there. Ate lunch at DQ. Picked up 5 loafs of discounted (expiring) bread a bakery nearby, and went home. Finally, I could sleep. It was about 1 PM.
Got woken up at 6:30 PM. It's brother-come-home-for-dinner day, and as usual we'd be eating out. Once again, groggy and needed to drive. Mui Garden curry for dinner.
This "nap" screwed me up again, and I couldn't sleep until 5:30 AM. (T_T) Am I screwed up for life?
Tired
Monday, January 11, 2010
Worst day this year (so far)
T W O M I N U T E S !!!!!!
And my long awaited and dearly needed income for today goes down the drain. God, why do you have to do this to me? I thought you don't hate me. Why do you have to make me change my mind again?
You're pushing me to kill myself, right? It was just that close today. That close. Perfect condition for a highway car crash. Teeth don't seem to be enough anymore. If you're punishing me for something I've done wrong, tell me what I've done wrong. I've been doing my best to be good. If this is what I get, might as well leave.
Tomorrow is gonna be another test. Maybe we can all leave in one car. Yes, all in one car. Clean and tidy. Three birds with one stone.
I'm sure this is the monster speaking. I hate myself for not being able to control the monster.Yeah, this is exactly why I don't qualify to live.
Mom is no help.
No help anywhere.
No hope anywhere.
Sunday, January 10, 2010
Dream
This time it happened before I started stretching. Looks like I don't get good sleep lying flat on my back.
Forgot most of it already. For the parts that I do remember...
I was dressed in German folk costume walking towards an Oktoberfest-like party housed in a building shaped like a giant wine barrel. The streets were like Granville Island. As I approached the building, I saw P near the entrance when I was still 1-2 blocks away. Oh boy oh boy? L was there too. As if automated, I continued walking towards P. When I reached the entrance, the building turn into some kind of art studio. Classes were in session. "Shout and Draw". Students were screaming. It was chaotic and kind of scary. P was making a mix-media piece outside the classroom with 3 or 4 other students doing their own thing . There was no greeting despite we haven't seen each other for a long time. It was awkward. After only a few words, there was a gap.
Can't remember how events connect, but the next thing was me being shown baby photos of Ae. (Really didn't make sense.) At this point I wasn't even talking to P anymore. It was a person I may or may not know. When Ae was a baby, his head was deformed, misshaped, and irregular, with lower IQ. Somehow he was eventually cured. I saw an event being "play back" in front of me. Ae was about 2 years old, standing at the pool side, holding the feet of another baby. He swung that upside-down baby like a pendulum to make his head dip in and out of water. Then baby Ae wobbled towards the edge of the pool, hitting the upside-down baby's head onto the side of the pool. The whole thing was so surreal, it was like a cartoon. An abusive one.
There was more, but it slipped away before I could write it down.
Forgot most of it already. For the parts that I do remember...
There was more, but it slipped away before I could write it down.
Saturday, January 09, 2010
Kitkat: Cherry
Friday, January 08, 2010
Day-timer
Michael's got day-timers for $1.50 since last December. If they weren't the thick type, I'd have bought those. My question is, why does a thin one cost 3.3 times more than a thick one??? Doesn't make any sense!
Dream
Woke up, lying in bed, stretching my stiff-like-rock back. Took a break and fell back asleep. (T_T)
Had a weird dream. Well, almost all my dreams are weird.
It was a projection of reality. In the dream, I woke up and found things in my room had been moved. My purse usually sits on my desk chair, was hanging on the wall where a poster used to be. There were more purses on the hook too.
Got out of my room, took a glance at the side table near the front door for a parcel I'm expecting, and it was there alright. The box was quite a bit smaller than it should, though. Went into the bathroom to wash my face. The room was completely different. Not just the bathroom, the whole house turn into a cross between our existing home and that of Mrs. L's, plus some of our old home. When I turn on the tab, a really tall unknown lady with a very small head came in, wanting to use the bathroom. I let her use the room first.
With a duster in hand, mom kind of told me that some of brother's daycare costumers will be coming here from now on, and a room is being cleared out for a helper to live in. I finished washing my face and ran into another unknown lady. The I proceed to cook oatmeal. The range was different too. It turn from electric coil into a gas range with open fire. A pot and wok were cooking. clearly not our kitchenware. I didn't want to mess with that, and went to see the living room. The floor plan changed again. There I noticed the house seemed bigger with more rooms. There were kid's furniture and toys all over the place. Mom continued to clean up and move things around. It was like trying to fit furniture from two homes into one.
Then I woke up at that point. I left the radio on when stretching, and the DJ was still talking about the same singer whose face was hidden from public by the record company until they release a CD, and the sales tactic worked. I thought, wow, all that dream in the duration of one song? But when I look at the clock, it was about an hour later. The radio program lasts 2 hours. So it could be the same DJ talking about the same thing twice. Hmm...
And... in reality, nope, the parcel hasn't arrived.
Had a weird dream. Well, almost all my dreams are weird.
Got out of my room, took a glance at the side table near the front door for a parcel I'm expecting, and it was there alright. The box was quite a bit smaller than it should, though. Went into the bathroom to wash my face. The room was completely different. Not just the bathroom, the whole house turn into a cross between our existing home and that of Mrs. L's, plus some of our old home. When I turn on the tab, a really tall unknown lady with a very small head came in, wanting to use the bathroom. I let her use the room first.
Then I woke up at that point. I left the radio on when stretching, and the DJ was still talking about the same singer whose face was hidden from public by the record company until they release a CD, and the sales tactic worked. I thought, wow, all that dream in the duration of one song? But when I look at the clock, it was about an hour later. The radio program lasts 2 hours. So it could be the same DJ talking about the same thing twice. Hmm...
And... in reality, nope, the parcel hasn't arrived.
Thursday, January 07, 2010
Pocky: Banana
I've been curious about those chocolate covered banana in front of Japanese shrines. Missed my chance to try it during last trip.
Wednesday, January 06, 2010
Black sesame rice wafer
Giant flags
Tuesday, January 05, 2010
MRI, dinner
The online cheap Pinkys came just in time for my nieces' birthday. They were $1 but shipping is $10 on the first item, $5 for subsequent ones. To offset the shipping cost, I also got some duplicates for chopping up. (Customizing, I meant.) It works out to about $8 each. Didn't win too much, but not bad at all.
Didn't realize I forgot to pluck my eyebrows for... over 10 days? Of course they look like crap now. Apparently, this is yet another side effect of my back. Talking about my back, I just saw my chiropractor yesterday, but why do I feel so crappy today? Ah, mystery solved when I turn on the radio. Humidity is 100%. That will do it. (T_T)
Dream
Looks like I'm remembering my dreams frequently these days. But this also means disturbed sleep.
Forgot most of last night's dream, but what I do remember was, I was traveling with my anime night friends, and we went into this huge snack store to pick up some munchies. The shelves were packed all the way up to the high ceiling. It was at night, and we had to go somewhere afterward. There were so many to choose from, I took a long time. I finally picked a drink that looks like ginger ale, but in a large Kikkoman flask-like bottle, with a freebie toy.
My friends left and wait for me outside the store. I tried to quickly search for something salty to eat, like some kind of chips to go with the soft drink. It took forever. I couldn't make up my mind. Then my friends came back in angry, saying I took too long.
I think the doorbell woke me up at that point.
I think the doorbell woke me up at that point.
Monday, January 04, 2010
Kidneys, blood, back
Took dad to his kidneys ultrasound appointment at VGH. I'm super surprised that it took less than half an hour. (Yay! Only $3 for parking! An hour is $6! Don't know about other people, but 6 bucks can buy me a good-size meal!)
Then we dropped off a copy of that document to our family doctor which we forgot to bring after dad's hospital discharge. Thought it's time to get his blood test for the urologist as well. The Lifelab at Chinatown does not reimburse parking. It's a separate entity from the ultrasound and x-ray lab sharing the same unit, which reimburse half to one hour parking depending on your test duration. Grrr... Luckily, despite the long wait, parking only cost $2.
Sunday, January 03, 2010
Kitkat: Jasmin Tea
It uses Jasmin tea extract. At least not artificial flavouring.
Saturday, January 02, 2010
Lunch
Friday, January 01, 2010
Happy new year!
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